The words to Toby Keith's 'American Soldier' seem to come to mind when I look at this pic. It's Todd's latest little gift to my inbox.
He was so proud of it. Waking me up at 3 this morning and telling me he had just sent a new picture he wanted me to see and then realizing the time, regretted his call and told me to stay in bed. Too bad - I was already awake.
The new base is working out well. There's a much higher morale and the people are a great team. Coming from a completely opposite situation, it's been a breath of fresh air and I can hear him getting back to himself with every phonecall.
'cept now I'm missing him more than ever. I heard from another friend in his battalion that he's getting early demob for July 4. Meanwhile Todd did not get that, and it looks like it will still be a long while until I can start counting down.
It's funny. I am feeling so melancholy today. I was waiting so long for someone in my life and before I met Todd, I thought that having someone in my life was not for me. I was ok being single and even liked it. Then 10 months ago, I met him and in the 5 days that ensued, I knew my world was rocked. For those 5 days, I remembered what it was like to have someone at my side. It was perfection. When we parted, it was one of the top emotional moments of my life and I will never ever forget the look on his face as he stood on the other side of the closing elevator doors. That is the last time I saw him.
Since then, we have spoken almost daily. It's at least a couple hundred phonecalls. All long distance and now since he's over 'there', all on his dime. Not much I can do about that, though.
Life is strange. I feel more alone now than I ever did in my 3+ years of singledom previous to this. I feel like my other half has been ripped away and I didn't even know I had another half. The hardest is many people's reactions. It's hard for people to seem to understand, given our unique relationship and situation, that it could actually be real. Hell, I know it's an odd situation and I probably would have my reservations too, hearing the story, but what I do know is that I have found someone who completes me. I have waited for far too long for that, and I will do whatever it takes to make that work.
He was so proud of it. Waking me up at 3 this morning and telling me he had just sent a new picture he wanted me to see and then realizing the time, regretted his call and told me to stay in bed. Too bad - I was already awake.
The new base is working out well. There's a much higher morale and the people are a great team. Coming from a completely opposite situation, it's been a breath of fresh air and I can hear him getting back to himself with every phonecall.
'cept now I'm missing him more than ever. I heard from another friend in his battalion that he's getting early demob for July 4. Meanwhile Todd did not get that, and it looks like it will still be a long while until I can start counting down.
It's funny. I am feeling so melancholy today. I was waiting so long for someone in my life and before I met Todd, I thought that having someone in my life was not for me. I was ok being single and even liked it. Then 10 months ago, I met him and in the 5 days that ensued, I knew my world was rocked. For those 5 days, I remembered what it was like to have someone at my side. It was perfection. When we parted, it was one of the top emotional moments of my life and I will never ever forget the look on his face as he stood on the other side of the closing elevator doors. That is the last time I saw him.
Since then, we have spoken almost daily. It's at least a couple hundred phonecalls. All long distance and now since he's over 'there', all on his dime. Not much I can do about that, though.
Life is strange. I feel more alone now than I ever did in my 3+ years of singledom previous to this. I feel like my other half has been ripped away and I didn't even know I had another half. The hardest is many people's reactions. It's hard for people to seem to understand, given our unique relationship and situation, that it could actually be real. Hell, I know it's an odd situation and I probably would have my reservations too, hearing the story, but what I do know is that I have found someone who completes me. I have waited for far too long for that, and I will do whatever it takes to make that work.
